Took me awhile to log in because i couldn't remember which password i put for this.

The past three weeks haven't been good, especially this week.
I really shouldn't even have started, but since i did, it's been an uphill task getting out of it.
I need to recover, and not to just simply walk off this bloody whole shit now and lose everything.
Will i lose more or will i just gain some back? Majority says lose, while i'm the only one remaining optimistic.
Gambling really jeopardises everything, including my relationship. Really feel like walking out of it, because this really hampers happiness and i don't want to supply a future short of happiness.
Indeed, money makes the world go round, while concurrently i'm making the money world go round ; and at the same time turning my own world round, but in a reverse direction.

I remember i know of a girl in secondary school from katong convent, she's rebellious, slutty, hell of a troublemaker, yeah just insert all the negative bad descriptions, you can say she's the epitome. After Os, she disappeared, closed her friendster account, cut away every single contact she has, changed her number, moved house. No one knew where is she, how is she, for a couple of years. Recently she added me on facebook, i read her blog, and could tell she's a totally changed person.
Maybe that's a good way to start over anew. Destroy all bad roots, replant your seeds, you'll have a good chance growing into a prettier tree.